Taking a step back...

Our family is going through an incredibly difficult time at the moment and whilst my blogging side has urged me on to share because of all the wonderful insight and support I gain from those who read my blog, as a mom I have to take a step back and decide how much of my children’s lives I am happy to share and they would be happy with being exposed on the web.

I can tell you that the process we are going through at the moment has made me acutely aware of the lack of support and mental health facilities available to children, particularly young children, other than psychologists or psychiatrists which are 10 to the dozen if you have the money, actual mental health facilities are very narrow and involve waiting lists and referrals which take time and are incredibly frustrating especially when you cannot afford to let the issue rest or simmer until it explodes into an even worse situation and even more so because you are trying to help your child your baby and it just seems like you are running on ice and getting nowhere.

We have reached the point where are options are few, we are facing a total reassessment for one of the boys that may involve being more on the spectrum than was originally diagnosed, we are also facing the lack of an aftercare facility that is able and willing to take on a child with the sort of issues were are going through as well as being heartbreakingly forced into a situation where we have had to send him to stay with a family member until we can resolve a way forward which is killing me.

I am angry frustrated and despondent at the lack of help and the amount of judgement that families with children with mental health issues receive and that the children themselves are faced with, I am tired and I am heartbroken.

Right now my other 2 kiddos are home and relishing that there is less of a fight for attention than there usually is, we are trying to stay positive and spend as much time giving them what they need right now, but its frikken hard when all you want to do is scream and cry from frustration because you are trying so hard to help your other child and give them the life they deserve free from judgment, bullies and hate, there are times when I don't even know what I feel or how to feel because I am just so lost.

I am going to go quiet for a while, this is something that we as a family need to rally together for and focus on, I will try to post but I am not sure when or how often.

My heart is so sore especially when I think of all the other parents struggling with the same sorts of issues and also struggling to get the help they need, it’s not right and it’s not fair and I wish I could make a change in the world so that everyone can get the help that they need.