A while back I wrote about my desire to stop breast feeding, unfortunately up until now this has been a non successful feat and I had pretty much resigned myself to being a walking pacifier forever.
Today I had to go to the doctor for various issues I have been having and I not only walked away with a small hill of med's but was advised to stop breastfeeding in order to take them.
Now I'm not lying when I told the doctor I practically willed her with my eyes, please give me a reason to stop without guilt so when I left I felt pretty fine about it.
That is until this evening, we decided I would start the med's after one last feed and as I held Jesse in my arms I burst into tears, I kid you not I sobbed myself silly, and all my hubby could do was shake his head and say but you wanted to stop for how long now as I cried and sobbed I know muffled in between, I was just so overwhelmed at that moment to think this was it the last time I would ever feed and the last time Jesse would ever feed.
Its been an incredible 2 years and 7 months journey and I feel incredibly blessed to have come this far and to have had this time especially as my last.
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