Its the small things...

In light of what has happened this past while I spent this weekend trying extremely hard as tired and frustrated as we were to just flat out spend time with the boys, play board games, read and talk and it really made me realize just how terrible it actually is to be a parent in today's age...

Everyone is always busy, we are always busy there is always something that needs to be done or something to worry over and by the time we all get home we are tired and quite frankly just want to fall into bed and get a bit of sleep before it starts all over again the next day.

Is it any wonder why things have become the way they are, why kids and adults both struggle emotionally or are emotionally crippled in some or other way, its not as if most of us don't want to spend time with our kids its just when we do we are present in person but we are not really always present emotionally if you know what I mean.

We have had to make an incredible amount of changes this last 2 weeks and I truely feel that although this situation or what has happened is not something I would wish upon any child or parent in many ways it has done our family some good.

I now get to drop my kids off at school every morning and as I hugged and kissed my kids goodbye this morning after physically walking them into the gate, I felt great; as a mom my heart swelled with joy and love as they waved good bye ecstatically until they were sure I could no longer see them... it may be something small but I feel even this will make a big change within our family dynamics and I will look forward to having this extra time with them every morning.

Its a terrible thing that sometimes it takes something tragic or terrible in order to wake us up to the small gestures, the precious time that we have to spend and truely appreciate those around us.

A games night is something that a friend and colleague actually suggested she was even kind enough to send some games our way and the kids had an absolute ball... no tv no interruptions I highly recommend it.

We are all so incredibly blessed but I think sometimes we just need to stop and truly wake up to our surroundings truly pay attention instead of living day to day in auto pilot so to speak.... our kids are only kids for so long and every year the time just seems to pass even more quickly than the year before...